Last Post of the Month

Seeing as its the last day of the month and there's scarcely any post, I decided to do a post...

At first I thought to do one post about a song we sang in church yesterday, I think its the Generation Band song, and I had a hard time looking for it, since they are afterall based in Singapore and is just a normal church band...I think...so I failed in looking for it...

So anyway, next month will probably be the same, few posts...but I hope in March, the number of posts will increase...since I wont be working any more...til next time, chiao....

Life Sucks...thus far....

Im beginning to feel like my life is terribly messed up...very, very messed up in fact...

To begin with, sometimes I feel that I could spend me entire life watching anime and reading manga, pursuing my "otaku" interest, sans cosplaying... Other times, I just cant finish an episode of anime or a chapter of manga, feeling lethargic and just wanting to laze around...

It would seemed that I have lost sight of my goals...I have done nothing since SPM to pursue the goals I set for myself...NOTHING...*sighs*...I wonder if I can even motivate myself enough to do it...

At times, I would feel like I can sleep the entire day, but sometimes, I think its a waste to sleep more than 8 hours a day...I think that time can be used to do something "special", but I just do know what to do...

Working makes it worst, the time I spend working feels like time that is wasted...sure, sure, there's the pay and all, but I wonder if I can go through it afterall...now with Jim gone, its gonna be plain boring, Im wondering if I should take a longer holiday during CNY, but Im also worried that I wouldnt be able to pay for me guitar...*sigh*, shouldnt have got it...now Im stuck working for another month...

Sometimes, Im looking forward to college, sometimes, I fear it...for reasons unknown, maybe because it symbolises something big, a huge step into adulthood as you leave your friends behind to make out, a venture out to the unknown, laying the cornerstone for the rest of your life...speaking of friends, Im beginning to wonder the real meaning of friendship....that thought alone deserve a whole post by itself...

I do know why I feel so vulnerable now, so useless, so unloved...but I should remember this feelings and learn from them since I would probably experience the same thing when I finish college...

For now, I living a life of an empty husk, no thoughts for the future, just struggling for the next day so that a next day can come...I feel like a zombie...aimless and lethargic, the only passion I have left, is my guitar and my "otaku" interests....that is all that is keeping me "alive"....*sigh*

For one more month, this is the life Im gonna have to live through, and to be honest, I would rather not think about it...its times like this that I wish we can control our life with a fast-forward button....

Look at how much I've rambled...feels better now....somethings are better spoken out loud, even if not literally....

Birthday Review...

So yesterday was my bday, so I decided to blog about the entire day...nothing much really...

1.) Got up really, really early to go to WORK!!!
2.) Got really, really TIRED, since I slept very LATE, last night, er that morning....
3.) Watched in ENVY as someone celebrated their bday at my workplace...(jkjk X3)
4.) Washed their plates and silverware, which were loaded with sticky chocolate cake....
5.) Kelly came to my workplace to give me a cake...my colleague asked "Ur sister ar?", I replied "No lar, friend", they replied "Oh..'frieeend'"....then everybody wished me happy bday, shaked hands and etc...
6.) Received a few SMS from frens and even a church member...though I could count it with my digits...
7.) Jimmy "chia" me a custard pie...lawl...
8.) Got myself an gitar caren....
9.) Received t-shirts from my sis, watch from another sis, and the usual angpau from my grandparents....my parents gift was given 6 months earlier...yup, it was my Viva...
10.) Lots of greetings on facebook...even some from ppl I dont know...

Its That Week Again....

Oh well, its that week again...

Yup its my bday week!!! Yippee, hooray, yahoo...watever...

Im not really into it this year...you were born on that day, so?? why make such a big fuss every year?? Yea, its a good time to spend with friends, but you can do it any other day right? Its just an excuse to get together...not that that's bad....

oh well...been thinking too much again...

anyways, happy bday to Rachel, Jane and Gabriel too....*big applause*.....

so for starters, this year I get to...drink alcohol...watch 18PL, 18SX, and 18watever movies, I get to play ecchi games (like Konata from Lucky Star...jkjk)...and get into college..yipee....oh yeah, I haveta get a new IC this year...oh well....

The Return of the Kings....

Well, we're not talking about the Lord of the Rings here, just about a message, sermon if you would, that I heard last Saturday at EBC...

That night was fun, really, an exhilarating worship time, especially since the sound barrier was mysteriously missing, if that thing is called sound barrier...i mean isnt sound barrier the speed of which sound travels??

It was pretty full that day due to the appearance of a guest speaker from NATIONStrategy, and man, do I like the way he preaches or what...he started off with "Who let the dogs out" and some barking, and then went on the talk about Marketplace Pastors, or as he says the Bible puts it, Kings...He is saying that our church is the city...and when the city prospers, so does the church, and we are the ones who would make it happen...Since the days of the Reformation, pastors(priests) have been trying to enforce a mindset that working is unholy, and then they try to make church-goers(kings) into priests, like trying to turn a dog into a cat, as he puts it "In Jesus name, dog, you are a cat!"....And he also states that this a the time that the Kings return as the intermediator between Pastors and the Community, so that it will be a time of great harvest...

Theres also a bunch of other stuff he said that I cant recall, but, how should I put it?? He's a dynamic speaker...

God Sent....

Its been a hectic day today...busy busy cause we are unofficial the "school canteen"...that and the absence of rain...so anyway, today Emma and Rebekah came by to have a meal, they ordered C****y meal and was playing around with the toy car...anyway, I joking ask them for tips and was offered BBQ sauce and mayo in return...

Here's the kick...

That very night...or rather tonight, some guy...a black guy (or however you call them so they dont feel offended) gave me tips...to have good results in SPM....jkjk, X3...

he actually gave me money worth 4 hours of work...god sent......goes to show not all of them are like the 3 idiots on my post EXACTLY one week ago...

but now Im kinda troubled...should I share the money, use it, or just give it away...haiz....dilemma...not a very good thing, since Im not a decision maker....

God Does Answer Prayers....

God Does Answer Prayers....once in a while, doesnt he??

Here's why...

1.) I was worried sick about the punch card machine because it skipped a day...e.g if today is the 5th, it punches the time on the 6th...and since Im having training at HQ, if the HQ machine is accurate, it would overlap my time....and then, lo and behold, they changed my off day to the day before training....

2.) I was worried and tired, since I was suppose to work until 9 tonight, and start at 8 tomorrow, and its a full 9 hours...I thought my legs werent going to be able to handle it, I was praying for perseverance and endurance so that I would be able to enjoy my life and not follow the routine of work, sleep, work, sleep.... and then lo and behold, my manager asked me to go back early, since by chance there was too much workers on duty...

AMEN.....

New Year, New Resolutions....

Its New Year...2010, so I guess its time for New Resolutions...

so....*drum rolls* this year I aspire to be an aspiring overachiever....lol...

Lets see....

1.) Finish working in March, start my Foundation in Swinburne...prob...
2.) Work on novel, manga, map(though my world edit crashed...)
3.) Slim down (tough one....)
4.) Learn breakdance whilst building up some muscles...
5.) Master at least 3 instruments, possibly guitar, piano and maybe drum??
6.) Hmmm...what else?? Guess that's all...

Damn F'ing Niggas....

Shit, Fuck, Damn...I hate those 3 damned F niggas....

No offense to Black people in general, but this 3 really got on my nerves...wanna noe why??

1.) Didnt explain properly what they wanted...why the hell didnt they order the coleslaw themselves in the first place?? And to think they call it salad...there's vegetable salad as well...

2.) Fine..I get that they wanted coleslaw...but the way they phrased it sounds like they already ordered and still havent gt it, I mean it is a SELF SERVICED restaurant...

3.) So I went and asked and came back again..and they told me they wanted to order, not ask for it...so I went back and told the cashier...the cashier asked me if they wanted Large or Reg...

4.) I went back to ask them, and they F'ing scolded me...shit you, do it yourself next time...so I decided they needed reg...went back down, helped them buy, went back..

5.) Told them it was RMx.xx EACH...he paid RMx.xx for all, and I repeated EACH, and he threatened to SACK me...who the hell does he think he is?? The founder's heir...I doubt his surname starts with an S....and to think I thought he said he wanted to SUCK me...shit....

6.) So he paid 6, and went down, and because of taxes, he owed a few cents, went back up, asked for it, paid the cashier and went back with 5 cents, and he didnt even take it home...F'ing nigger, and his gal...his fren was ok though...so I think it was 2 F'ing Niggas....